I´ve had enough of surprises in my life, I want a normal boring life, full of routine and predictable things.
Today, what a fucking nightmare, more so to David than to myself, but I can´t stop thinking what is going to happen from here, I know I need to be strong and I´m trying very hard.. I´ll be fine and I´ll always be there for David, and I know he is a strong person... I hope that always remains the same,cos this hasnt ended yet, we still have a long way to go although hope is not something I´m really hanging onto now.
Every action has a consequence and we all have to pay those consequences but fucking hell its about time something good happens... Because if not then I dont know what is the point.
I´m sick and tired of people giving me moral lessons, sick and tired of pretence and lies.
Sick and tired of people wanting to know but not really giving a shit, sick and tired of everything.
I´m pissed off with myself for not being there for him for not knowing what was going on.
I´m pissed off with the world, pissed off with the so called self righteous, fucking owners of the truth that really have no fucking idea.
Maybe tomorrow the sun will shine again.
Isabel
