Its finally friday, to top it off its a beautiful day outside, it finally feels like summer... HOWEVER.....feeling really pissed off with the world right now. Dont know why.. have no explanation for it whatsoever..at least nothing that will make sense to anyone.
Counting the minutes to get out of here. If only some people could see how dark my mood is they wouldn't be smiling at me, but hey all they can see is the smily,"all is funfuckingtastic" face that i'm putting on at the mo...
Also counting the seconds to go home, i cant remember last time i have felt so desperate to get there, not counting when my brother has his issues with his flatmate last year, everytime i get a message i just want to call back and spent hours on the phone with whoever smsed me.
not the right time to blog... see you all soon...
Isabel
x
Friday, May 27, 2005
Monday, May 23, 2005
How many times has this happened to you?
The below is actually quite funny and very true, the worst thing is - regarding the " i just want to be friends" the guy will end up not wanting a friendship at all.
But in a way i cant really blame the guy for becoming more distant, its difficult to be in love and not being loved back, and sometimes a friendship will simply not be enough....
Keep well
Isabel : )
But in a way i cant really blame the guy for becoming more distant, its difficult to be in love and not being loved back, and sometimes a friendship will simply not be enough....
The Futile Fugue: Variations on a Theme
How many times has this happened to you?
The stories remain the same, from the first note you passed in grammar school, to the woman you met through a mutual friend in college:
You meet a girl who is everything you ever wanted in a life-partner: attractive, funny, smart, great personality, laughs at your jokes, understands who you are as a human being, etc. You talk to her briefly, and find out that she is even more attractive now that you've spoken to her. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS"
You meet someone: a neighbor, schoolmate, co-worker, in the same club, on the same bus. You become fast friends. One day, you realize that, in addition to being a close friend, this person is an attractive woman. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I DON'T WANT TO RISK OUR FRIENDSHIP"
You meet a girl who you know could be the one. She makes your toes curl, your stomach knot, your mouth dry -- you become even more of a gibbering idiot then you usually are. You're so incapacitated in her presence that you can't ask her out. You decide that things will be better once you get to know her better, so you become friends. You become best friends -- so good, in fact, that you can't bring yourself to ask her out. Yet there is this nagging voice in the back of your mind that says you could be more than friends. You swear that you will tell her how you really feel. Right before you can do this, she tells you:
"I'VE MET THIS REALLY GREAT GUY"
Keep well
Isabel : )
drinking, dancing, forgetting the world
Hello world,
Its monday again, back at work, its been a pretty quiet day but, that doesn't actually help the fact that i'm stuck in this office, when i actually feel like being outside enjoying the sun.
I had a really good weekend, it actually feels quite long, although I spent most of yesterday asleep, it must be because i was out drinking wednesday, thursday, friday and saturday. I'm drinking alot again, although i havent been sick on it for a long time, it just feels like a week doesn't go by that i dont drink.
Saturday especially, was really good, it was a friends birthday, and we started the night with a couples of bottles of wine, and next thing was 8.00am and i was feeling really guilty that i was a the club still dancing away. Met loads of new people that were at the birthday, and they are all so easy going.
Its so nice to have moments like this, to actually forget the world around you, the people, life in general, and enjoy life just for the sake of it and dance just because, and laugh because life is good, not to worry about anything in the world but the right now.
Anyway, that was my weekend.Got my leave approved today to go home, i cannot wait to be in Portugal. See my cousin, we have so much to catch up on, so much we need to talk about, i think she is probably one of the only people in the world that can understand what i am thinking just by looking at me, so it'll be very very good to be with her again, even if only for a few days.
That's all for now...
Carpe Diem :)
Isabel
Its monday again, back at work, its been a pretty quiet day but, that doesn't actually help the fact that i'm stuck in this office, when i actually feel like being outside enjoying the sun.
I had a really good weekend, it actually feels quite long, although I spent most of yesterday asleep, it must be because i was out drinking wednesday, thursday, friday and saturday. I'm drinking alot again, although i havent been sick on it for a long time, it just feels like a week doesn't go by that i dont drink.
Saturday especially, was really good, it was a friends birthday, and we started the night with a couples of bottles of wine, and next thing was 8.00am and i was feeling really guilty that i was a the club still dancing away. Met loads of new people that were at the birthday, and they are all so easy going.
Its so nice to have moments like this, to actually forget the world around you, the people, life in general, and enjoy life just for the sake of it and dance just because, and laugh because life is good, not to worry about anything in the world but the right now.
Anyway, that was my weekend.Got my leave approved today to go home, i cannot wait to be in Portugal. See my cousin, we have so much to catch up on, so much we need to talk about, i think she is probably one of the only people in the world that can understand what i am thinking just by looking at me, so it'll be very very good to be with her again, even if only for a few days.
That's all for now...
Carpe Diem :)
Isabel
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Was asked to work late tonight, couldn't really say no, so here i am past 8pm and i am so bored, these people never arrive for me to sort out their access to this bloody building.
A good thing, going for a drink after i finish here and am off tomorrow, going to a wedding. Should be good fun, have been very lazy, haven't bought a card or the present, its terrible i know, but i completely forgot the date until last weekend when the boys went out for the stag night.
On a different subject--
the exercising has such hasn't really been happening, well, havent joined the gym( will do soon), have been walking a lot more, but havent jog since.. but on the good side, last saturday i dance until 5.30 in the morning, from about 1am, that has to count for something, hasn't it? :/
Everyone is really obsessed about exercising in this place,i have never felt bad about it until now, all they seem to talk about is how many miles they have run in whatever time... boring shit i know, but i cant really tell them to shut up, after all i could use with losing a few pounds myself.
Lets see what happens.
Isabel
A good thing, going for a drink after i finish here and am off tomorrow, going to a wedding. Should be good fun, have been very lazy, haven't bought a card or the present, its terrible i know, but i completely forgot the date until last weekend when the boys went out for the stag night.
On a different subject--
the exercising has such hasn't really been happening, well, havent joined the gym( will do soon), have been walking a lot more, but havent jog since.. but on the good side, last saturday i dance until 5.30 in the morning, from about 1am, that has to count for something, hasn't it? :/
Everyone is really obsessed about exercising in this place,i have never felt bad about it until now, all they seem to talk about is how many miles they have run in whatever time... boring shit i know, but i cant really tell them to shut up, after all i could use with losing a few pounds myself.
Lets see what happens.
Isabel
Friday, April 29, 2005
A little poetry..
What Love Is
by Karin Schaefer
It is Love that gives me purpose
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on this path
and helps me choose each turn.
It is Love that gives me courage
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.
It is Love that gives me trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between us,
it is Love that keeps me strong.
It is Love that offers harmony
and a friendship that is true.
How wonderful that I can share
a Love like this with you!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Exercising, exercising, exercising...
I got myself involved in this 5km run in Regents Park on the 12th May, of course i havent actually done any kind of sport in quite a long time... so yesterday me and my colleague went for a 5km run last night after work.....
Oh my dear God, Oh my dear God, oh my dear God....
Why didn't anyone tell that 5k actually feels like a bloody marathon. I felt shit yesterday, i still feel shit today,my legs are so sore that i look like a old woman when i'm trying to stand up. I did walk from my job to Hammersmith, it felt good. But i'm very very very unfit...
I do want to keep it up, i'll join the gym next week and go jogging this weekend a couple of times.
Anyways, apart from that all is well.
See ya on the flip side.
Isabel
Oh my dear God, Oh my dear God, oh my dear God....
Why didn't anyone tell that 5k actually feels like a bloody marathon. I felt shit yesterday, i still feel shit today,my legs are so sore that i look like a old woman when i'm trying to stand up. I did walk from my job to Hammersmith, it felt good. But i'm very very very unfit...
I do want to keep it up, i'll join the gym next week and go jogging this weekend a couple of times.
Anyways, apart from that all is well.
See ya on the flip side.
Isabel
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Blah blah blah....
It has been a while since i last posted anything.....
A few things have been happening, it actually feels like a lifetime since i posted and dunno where to start...
I'm unfortunately no longer going to Tibet, the trip got cancelled because they did not have the minimun amount of people required to run the trip, i was so dissapointed when they emailed me.I had a little cry, because this was my trip of a lifetime, but now other stuff is happening and i'll try and get there next year, otherwise,plan a different trip, there's a whole world out there waiting for me to discover it..
Last weekend i was in Mallorca with Brendan, 4 days of sunshine and relaxation, it was great, althought most of the tourists(actually about 80%)looked over 50. Not the most exciting place, but pretty enough, and hey i did want a relaxing trip.
In no rush to go back as i didn't find the island that pretty, but as i said- glad i did it, the beaches are very nice.
Have to make a plan where to go next, at some stage go back to Portugal for a few days, and maybe join my friends in their backpacking trip through Spain, i really want to go back to Seville, a beautiful city. So many places to go, so little time...
In other areas of my life...
My brother is now a "god" because he is a paratrooper, and he completed 6 jumps, i'm so proud of him, everytime time i speak to him on the phone, he sounds very tired but pleased and it has been a long while since i heard him speaking of something with such entusiasm. I can't wait to see him again..
And at work is all good, my boss has been off this week, what a bliss, he is a nice person, but a pain in the ass with his little silly things.
Cant wait for this weekend...
All for now... all those news seem to have been reduced to pretty much nothing.
Keep all
Isabel
A few things have been happening, it actually feels like a lifetime since i posted and dunno where to start...
I'm unfortunately no longer going to Tibet, the trip got cancelled because they did not have the minimun amount of people required to run the trip, i was so dissapointed when they emailed me.I had a little cry, because this was my trip of a lifetime, but now other stuff is happening and i'll try and get there next year, otherwise,plan a different trip, there's a whole world out there waiting for me to discover it..
Last weekend i was in Mallorca with Brendan, 4 days of sunshine and relaxation, it was great, althought most of the tourists(actually about 80%)looked over 50. Not the most exciting place, but pretty enough, and hey i did want a relaxing trip.
In no rush to go back as i didn't find the island that pretty, but as i said- glad i did it, the beaches are very nice.
Have to make a plan where to go next, at some stage go back to Portugal for a few days, and maybe join my friends in their backpacking trip through Spain, i really want to go back to Seville, a beautiful city. So many places to go, so little time...
In other areas of my life...
My brother is now a "god" because he is a paratrooper, and he completed 6 jumps, i'm so proud of him, everytime time i speak to him on the phone, he sounds very tired but pleased and it has been a long while since i heard him speaking of something with such entusiasm. I can't wait to see him again..
And at work is all good, my boss has been off this week, what a bliss, he is a nice person, but a pain in the ass with his little silly things.
Cant wait for this weekend...
All for now... all those news seem to have been reduced to pretty much nothing.
Keep all
Isabel
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