My journey through day to day life, useless thoughts, pissed of days, happy days... travels.. My world..
Friday, December 23, 2005
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Christmas.... AGAIN..and my friends...
So, yeah... that time of the year again.... Christmas celebrations have officially started...
Last weekend, was over at me friend's for an early Christmas dinner, since most of them will be away... The dinner was at a pub in Carnaby Street.. and it was actually really good fun.
The past 2 weeks have not been the greatest in my life, so it was good to be with those guys and behave way too childish as per usual ( Deb- sorry about the 2 candles i managed to ruin.... and all the wax that i threw around the table)...
There were a few people there that I hadn't seen in ages.. and we did laugh very hard.
Its officially been 5 years that I live in London, and the greatest thing, is that some of the people that were at that dinner have been my friends since i pretty much arrived in the UK.. They feel like my family, and it feels great to see how much our lifes have changed since we arrived in this mad city, and how many great stories and good times we shared, I love these guys to bits.. and I hope we can carry on like we have been up til now, for a long time to come...
Guys, you're great... thanks for everything..
Isabel
xxx
Friday, December 09, 2005
Lessons in Life
Think again.. I know what I want to say.. Have no idea how to start.
The last few weeks have been shit, I have received news from home that made me question a lot of things, about my life, past present and future.. I feel a sense of uselessness that I dont even know what to do to overcome it..
I have overcome the shock and are able to think more clearly, but the feeling that there's so little I can actually do its just something else that I need to know how to deal with...
I never thought I could feel so much sadness again, such emptiness and so much pain all over again... I find myself saying things, that sound even to my ears the lamest excuses ever..
I hope things turn out for the best, and that I'll be able to look back at this with my bro and just see it as a lesson, a hard lesson...I can't wait when that day comes...
Love you Bro,
sis..
xxx
Monday, November 21, 2005
Kiss
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Friday, November 11, 2005
How You Are In Love
How You Are In Love |
You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. |
THE KEYS TO YOUR HEART
The Keys to Your Heart |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Thursday, November 10, 2005
Here's some more photos of Egypt.
The first on is Dave, Me, Brad and Jen ( Aussie couple that was doing the same 8 days tour as Dave and I, so we spent quite a lot of time together, they are really nice people, it was cool to know get to know them.
Second photo- is the Alexandria Library-such a beautiful place, and such a shock when I first saw it, i was expecting something really old, and got his super modern buildings..it was amazing...
Third photo- Abu Simbel - Ramses and Nefertiti's temple - again a fantastic place, with a huge lake around, it doesnt matter how much i try and explain how huge and amazing this place was, u have to go there to fully understand, no photos will do it justice.
Fourth photo- Hatsepshut's temple, the first woman king in Egypt- ok she made up she was a man- its a very complicated and very amazing story... ( I first heard about Hatsepshut when i was about 14 and read a book about her, so actually going to Egypt and find out more was amazing for me... )
Speak to you all later peeps...
Isabel
xxx
Monday, November 07, 2005
Monday blues....
Monday again.. i cant bloody believe it..
The weekend was really cool..
Friday night went out for a few too many vodka redbulls- I've got a love for punishment - this drink makes me feel sick, but for some reason, i keep drinking - against all common sense..
Saturday, shopping day.. bought some more shoes ( a girl can never have too many shoes- my boyfriend disagrees-of course ) .. 1- a really nice pair of boots,it was love at first sight, cost me £80, but i love them. 2- a pair of stilleto sandals (I'm so gonna die) to wear to a wedding next month in South Africa.. I love the sandals, but NO they are not confortable - y is it that I constantly get asked this, stilettos are never confortable, and never will be...
Anyway - after shopping went out for a few drinks with Deb and Del,it was a friends b'day and it was nice to see them all again.. after a few weeks withouth seeing each other. PASSIONFRUIT MARTINI is the way to go... really tasty cocktail - yum yum ..
Sunday- highlight of the weekend- came into work cos GREEN DAY were playing, these guys are wicked... arrived at work at 2pm and drunk all afternoon,(helped out a bit with the event, not that much to do really) , and Green Day came on stage at 7.10 pm, and played until 8.00... they were awesome.. when i get some photos I'll post them..
Anyways peeps... its monday again, another working day and I've got the feeling that its gonna be a long week...
See ya soon,
Isabel
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Photos of Egypt
Hello again...
These are the first photos... first one is in Cairo, the day we arrive about 5 minutes from the hotel ( well, 5 minutes, if the driving in the country made some sense, but realistically its more like 15 minutes. Its scary crossing the road.. )
The second one is Karnak Temple in Luxor.. a ginormous statue of Ramses and his wife/daughter.. yeah the guy married 3 of his daugthers.. they were very forward these Pharaos.
Will post some more photos soon.. I'm actually at work at the moment, and shouldn't really be playing with the blog.
Bye for now...
Isabel
Monday, October 31, 2005
Hey...
Hey u guys? Hows life treating you all out there in the world?
I cant believe that last time I posted was in August sometime… Since then, a few things have happened…
The most exciting one is that I have been to Egypt, got back last week, spent 10 days there, went to Cairo, Aswan, Luxor, Edfu, visited a shit loads of temples, that were amazing all of temple. Cairo is a mad house, crossing the road is probably the most life threatening thing I have ever experience in my life- the drivers there really don’t care- HONEST, THEY REALLY DON’T CARE. – The advice we had from a local, was to put your head down, close your eyes and go..AND hope for the best- If a local is telling you this.. YES, it was kinda scary at times. But its amazing.. Will post some photos, sometime soon…
I should tell you a lot more things, but I gotta go now..
I will come back soon...
Speak soon,
Isabel
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
News.....
Right, the latest and best news, is that i have been promoted...
Had my interview yesterday morning, was a nervous wreck... but once i got there i was really calm, or u know a lot calmer that i was before... so the interview went well, i got out of there with a feeling that i actually didn't fuck it up, and had defenititely gave it my best shot...
Later on in the day I was told that i got the job... really happy about it... a lot more work.. a lot more stuff to do, more responsability... but i'm pleased...
Also a very good friend of mine told me he is now a dad.. which is really good news.. I'm so happy for both of them. Its a little girl, and hopefully i'll see her photo soon... I bet she is gorgeous.
Its all for now... will tell more soon
Isabel
: )
Thursday, August 18, 2005
INTRUCTIONS FOR LIFE... Dalai Lama message for 2005
Nothing new, but somehow things we always need to be remember...
1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
2. When you lose, dont lose the lesson.
3. Follow the 3 R's
- Respect for self
- Respect for other's
- Responsability for all your actions
4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great relationship.
7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
8. Spend some time alone every day.
9. Open arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
10.Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back,you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
11. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.
13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
14. Share your knowledge. Its a way to achieve immortality.
15. Be gentle with the earth.
16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
18. Judge your success by what you had to give you in order to get it.
19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
Friends.... quotes by Anon
"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it's only by this meeting that a new world is born."
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
You
Thursday, August 04, 2005
Return of the snakebites..... :p
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Weird day...
About 20 minutes later, this girl walks in the office asks me something, and basicly bursts out in tears, and starts telling that her boyfriend broke up with her a couple weeks back and he is already dating someone else that also works here, and she saw them together for the first time yesterday... right........... what do u tell someone that I'm in no way friends with and has a broken heart?
I felt really sorry for the girl but at that moment i just wanted her to leave me alone, and stop crying and get her act together...
Monday, July 18, 2005
Its been awhile, and a couple things have been happening, well, a lot of drinking anyway....
Went out thursday night, for a company summer party, its was really nice and got very drunk, so friday was a nightmare of day, cos i was sleep deprived, and to be honest i think i was still drunk when i woke up... but i survived and went out that night to see Phantom of the Opera - second time I've seen it and its such a fantastic show, this is a show I'll happilly whatch a million times without getting sick of it...
Its monday again, and hopefully this week will be a bit better than last friday, althought if today is anything to go by, I'll have a few very angry customers to deal with. See what happens....
In a happier tone, here are some photos from last thursday...
Smile.... : )
Isabel
xoxo
Friday, July 08, 2005
More photos from my holiday in Portugal... missing it loads .
Friday, June 24, 2005
Sleepless nights
time to go and try to sleep...
good night world..
Isabel
xxx
Thursday, June 23, 2005
MAKE POVERTY HISTORY
Please have a look at the link below, wont take much of your time and its some info.
http://www.makepovertyhistory.org/getinvolved/
Thanks very much
Isabel
xoxo
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Somewhere.....
any experience,your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near
your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully,mysteriously)her first rose
or if your wish be to close me,i and
my life will shut very beautifully,suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;
nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing
(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens;only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody,not even the rain, has such small hands
e.e.cummings
Monday, June 20, 2005
Post-holiday "couldn't give a shit" mood
So its been a week already that i've returned from Portugal, and it was absolutely great to be home.. it wasn't long enough, it never is, really, but 9 days definitely wasn't long enough.
Great to see my bro, he is looking great, really happy and fit, nice to see that things are going good for him.
The last week i was in a pretty shitty mood all week, really didn't wanna be here, but its always the same isn't it? Come back from holidays and it takes a little while to go back into work mode, feeling quite restless already, need to book the September holiday really quickly so that I have something to look forward to that is closer than South Africa holiday.
Will try and post a couple pix, but cant promise i will as i fight with this bloody thing everytime i try to post photos.
Speak soon (when i'm in a better mood)
Isabel
xo
Friday, May 27, 2005
Friday at last, y in a bad mood?
Counting the minutes to get out of here. If only some people could see how dark my mood is they wouldn't be smiling at me, but hey all they can see is the smily,"all is funfuckingtastic" face that i'm putting on at the mo...
Also counting the seconds to go home, i cant remember last time i have felt so desperate to get there, not counting when my brother has his issues with his flatmate last year, everytime i get a message i just want to call back and spent hours on the phone with whoever smsed me.
not the right time to blog... see you all soon...
Isabel
x
Monday, May 23, 2005
How many times has this happened to you?
But in a way i cant really blame the guy for becoming more distant, its difficult to be in love and not being loved back, and sometimes a friendship will simply not be enough....
The Futile Fugue: Variations on a Theme
How many times has this happened to you?
The stories remain the same, from the first note you passed in grammar school, to the woman you met through a mutual friend in college:
You meet a girl who is everything you ever wanted in a life-partner: attractive, funny, smart, great personality, laughs at your jokes, understands who you are as a human being, etc. You talk to her briefly, and find out that she is even more attractive now that you've spoken to her. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I JUST WANT TO BE FRIENDS"
You meet someone: a neighbor, schoolmate, co-worker, in the same club, on the same bus. You become fast friends. One day, you realize that, in addition to being a close friend, this person is an attractive woman. You ask her out. She says to you:
"I DON'T WANT TO RISK OUR FRIENDSHIP"
You meet a girl who you know could be the one. She makes your toes curl, your stomach knot, your mouth dry -- you become even more of a gibbering idiot then you usually are. You're so incapacitated in her presence that you can't ask her out. You decide that things will be better once you get to know her better, so you become friends. You become best friends -- so good, in fact, that you can't bring yourself to ask her out. Yet there is this nagging voice in the back of your mind that says you could be more than friends. You swear that you will tell her how you really feel. Right before you can do this, she tells you:
"I'VE MET THIS REALLY GREAT GUY"
Keep well
Isabel : )
drinking, dancing, forgetting the world
Its monday again, back at work, its been a pretty quiet day but, that doesn't actually help the fact that i'm stuck in this office, when i actually feel like being outside enjoying the sun.
I had a really good weekend, it actually feels quite long, although I spent most of yesterday asleep, it must be because i was out drinking wednesday, thursday, friday and saturday. I'm drinking alot again, although i havent been sick on it for a long time, it just feels like a week doesn't go by that i dont drink.
Saturday especially, was really good, it was a friends birthday, and we started the night with a couples of bottles of wine, and next thing was 8.00am and i was feeling really guilty that i was a the club still dancing away. Met loads of new people that were at the birthday, and they are all so easy going.
Its so nice to have moments like this, to actually forget the world around you, the people, life in general, and enjoy life just for the sake of it and dance just because, and laugh because life is good, not to worry about anything in the world but the right now.
Anyway, that was my weekend.Got my leave approved today to go home, i cannot wait to be in Portugal. See my cousin, we have so much to catch up on, so much we need to talk about, i think she is probably one of the only people in the world that can understand what i am thinking just by looking at me, so it'll be very very good to be with her again, even if only for a few days.
That's all for now...
Carpe Diem :)
Isabel
Thursday, May 05, 2005
A good thing, going for a drink after i finish here and am off tomorrow, going to a wedding. Should be good fun, have been very lazy, haven't bought a card or the present, its terrible i know, but i completely forgot the date until last weekend when the boys went out for the stag night.
On a different subject--
the exercising has such hasn't really been happening, well, havent joined the gym( will do soon), have been walking a lot more, but havent jog since.. but on the good side, last saturday i dance until 5.30 in the morning, from about 1am, that has to count for something, hasn't it? :/
Everyone is really obsessed about exercising in this place,i have never felt bad about it until now, all they seem to talk about is how many miles they have run in whatever time... boring shit i know, but i cant really tell them to shut up, after all i could use with losing a few pounds myself.
Lets see what happens.
Isabel
Friday, April 29, 2005
A little poetry..
What Love Is
by Karin Schaefer
It is Love that gives me purpose
to change and grow and learn.
It is Love that guides me on this path
and helps me choose each turn.
It is Love that gives me courage
to stand against my fears;
to open up my heart to you,
to let you see my tears.
It is Love that gives me trust and hope
when little thing go wrong.
When distance stands between us,
it is Love that keeps me strong.
It is Love that offers harmony
and a friendship that is true.
How wonderful that I can share
a Love like this with you!
Thursday, April 28, 2005
Exercising, exercising, exercising...
Oh my dear God, Oh my dear God, oh my dear God....
Why didn't anyone tell that 5k actually feels like a bloody marathon. I felt shit yesterday, i still feel shit today,my legs are so sore that i look like a old woman when i'm trying to stand up. I did walk from my job to Hammersmith, it felt good. But i'm very very very unfit...
I do want to keep it up, i'll join the gym next week and go jogging this weekend a couple of times.
Anyways, apart from that all is well.
See ya on the flip side.
Isabel
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Blah blah blah....
A few things have been happening, it actually feels like a lifetime since i posted and dunno where to start...
I'm unfortunately no longer going to Tibet, the trip got cancelled because they did not have the minimun amount of people required to run the trip, i was so dissapointed when they emailed me.I had a little cry, because this was my trip of a lifetime, but now other stuff is happening and i'll try and get there next year, otherwise,plan a different trip, there's a whole world out there waiting for me to discover it..
Last weekend i was in Mallorca with Brendan, 4 days of sunshine and relaxation, it was great, althought most of the tourists(actually about 80%)looked over 50. Not the most exciting place, but pretty enough, and hey i did want a relaxing trip.
In no rush to go back as i didn't find the island that pretty, but as i said- glad i did it, the beaches are very nice.
Have to make a plan where to go next, at some stage go back to Portugal for a few days, and maybe join my friends in their backpacking trip through Spain, i really want to go back to Seville, a beautiful city. So many places to go, so little time...
In other areas of my life...
My brother is now a "god" because he is a paratrooper, and he completed 6 jumps, i'm so proud of him, everytime time i speak to him on the phone, he sounds very tired but pleased and it has been a long while since i heard him speaking of something with such entusiasm. I can't wait to see him again..
And at work is all good, my boss has been off this week, what a bliss, he is a nice person, but a pain in the ass with his little silly things.
Cant wait for this weekend...
All for now... all those news seem to have been reduced to pretty much nothing.
Keep all
Isabel
Thursday, March 10, 2005
violent but funny
PS-- CLICK ON THE TITLE AND WILL REDIRECT YOU TO LINK
keep well
Isabel
Thursday, February 24, 2005
Shall I compare thee to a summer's day? (Sonnet 18)
Thou art more lovely and more temperate.
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date.
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature's changing course, untrimmed;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,
Nor shall death brag thou wand'rest in his shade,
When in eternal lines to Time thou grow'st.
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
William Shakespeare
Thursday, February 10, 2005
Friday, January 28, 2005
New year, new life??!!!!
Work- some talks about me changing jobs.. not sure if really interested, but just gonna wait and see what happens. Apart from that everything remains the same.
Home- apart from being a bit sick of listening to weddings arranjments ( ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ), all is well. I do feel i need to go away though, need to go home for a while and have time to see everyone to spend time with my brother, to be there and know what's happening to him, i seem to always be the last one to know what's going on in his life, and never know the whole truth, he tries very hard not to tell me things he knows would worry me or irritate me.
I need time for myself.
Friday, January 21, 2005
Thursday, January 20, 2005
I wish you enough..
Recently, I overheard a Mother and daughter in their last moments together
at a regional airport. They had announced her departure and standing near
the security gate, they hugged and she said to her daughter, "I love you.
I wish you enough."
She in turn said, "Mom, our life together has been more than enough.
Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Mom."
They kissed and she left.
She walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there, I
could see she wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on her
privacy, but she welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say good-bye to
someone knowing it would be forever?"
"Yes, I have," I replied.
"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever good-bye?" I asked.
"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and
the reality is, the next trip back will be for my funeral," she said.
"When you were saying good-bye I heard you say, "I wish you enough.
May I ask what that means?"
She began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other
generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."
She paused for a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail,
she smiled even more.
"When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have
a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," she continued.
Then, turning toward me, she shared the following as if she were reciting
it from memory.
I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much
bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish you enough hellos to get you through the final good-bye."
She then began to sob and walked away.
My friends and loved ones, I wish you ENOUGH!!! They say "It takes a minute
to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them,
but then an entire life to forget them"
My friends and loved ones, I wish you ENOUGH
List....
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at the supermarket
5. A special glance.
6. Getting mail
7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Chocolate milkshake. (or vanilla or strawberry!)
12. A bubble bath.
13. Giggling.
14. A good conversation.
15. The beach
16. Finding a 20 pound bill in your coat from last winter.
17. Laughing at yourself.
18. Thinking you have finished your coffee and realising that there
is still one sip left.
19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
20. Running through sprinklers.
21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
23. Laughing at an inside joke.
24. Friends.
25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to
sleep.
27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
29. Playing with a new puppy.
30. Having someone play with your hair.
31. Sweet dreams.
32. Hot chocolate.
33. Road trips with friends.
34. Swinging on swings.
35. Making people smile
36. Making chocolate chip cookies.
37. Having your friends send you home-made cookies.
38. Holding hands with someone you care about.
39. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good
or bad) never change.
40. Catching the expression on someone's face as they open a much
desired
present from you.
41. Watching the sunrise.
42. Getting out of bed every morning and being grateful for another
beautiful day.
43. Knowing that somebody misses you.
44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.
45. Knowing you've done the right thing, no matter what other people
think.
What's your element
Your Element Is Air |
You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that! |
What kind of Soul are you?
You Are a Retrospective Soul |
The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul |
What age do you act?
You Are 24 Years Old |
24 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |